No one tells you what to do with your self after you have been diagnosed with Cancer.
It doesn't seem right to go about your day like everything is normal. Nothing is normal anymore.
Today I had to go to Kaiser for x-rays. Seems strange after having a MRI only days ago, but I won't argue the issue. Then I tried to do some light shopping in WalMart. I felt like I was walking in slow motion. $40 worth of groceries took over a hour to shop for. I had to go back to get shampoo after I checked out once because I forgot it. I forgot it the first time last week so I really needed it today! Then I stopped at Trader Joe's for a few things. Again this took my forever. I drove home in a trance. I looked down at my gauges and I was driving 60 miles an hour on the freeway. Thats 20 under my usual. I felt like I wasn't in a rush to get anywhere.
When I got home I put away my groceries and then I had no idea what to do. The specialist hasn't called me yet. I checked my phone for the one thousandth time. I called and left a message at my Drs office. What now?
Clean house, load the dishwasher? I dont give a damn about that. I'm afraid to be away from my phone and miss a call, or be somewhere that I don't have cell reception. I feel like I'm going a little crazy here!