Does God answer prayers?

This morning when I was thinking about a blog subject I was thinking about praying as one. Then I saw this article on my Facebook feed. My blog is done today!




Go check it out and then drop to your knees and give it a try!

Does God answer prayers?:

Today I am grateful for...

(1) Today I am grateful for...: "Today I am grateful to be able to celebrate another birthday! At my age, I use to shutter at the thought of getting older. But 9 months ago I was diognosed with cancer. Thanks to modern medicine, and the love of God I made it through treatment. My future looks good and today I celebrate!"

You're in Remission: What Next?

This was an article I read a couple days ago. It really made me stop and think about my own "remission". I don't call it that yet. 

I have experienced many things mentioned in this article. Inability to find my New Normal, fatigue, Survivor guilt, and still healing from treatment. I struggle calling myself a "cancer survivor" because I'm waiting for that other foot to drop.

 I expected to just go back to the old me after treatment. But cancer changes you!

 Im off to journal and blog about this.#stupidcancer





You're in Remission: What Next? - WhatNext:



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Same-sex couples in California have the freedom to marry!!

Marriage for Same-Sex Couples in California

Thanks to the U.S. Supreme Court’s ruling in Hollingsworth v. Perry, same-sex couples in California have the freedom to marry once again.

California | Lambda Legal:

Its about time California!

AND I AM THE ORDAINED MINISTER THAT CAN HELP MAKE THAT HAPPEN!

Go to my webpage for details and contact information today! 

I Dos By Becca b-burgess.com

I Dos by Becca @ b-burgess.com

It' nice day for a wedding!

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Why do bad things happen to good people????

Why do bad things happen to good people:

The 2014 Guide to the Sarcoma Universe | For the Newly Diagnosed

The 2014 Guide to the Sarcoma Universe has just been published! http://sarcomahelp.org/newly-diagnosed.html

This expanded and updated "guide for the whole person" helps new patients and their loved ones to understand a sarcoma diagnosis, seek the best care, manage treatment, cope well and find support. It is featured in the latest issue of ESUN.http://sarcomahelp.org/esun.html





The 2014 Guide to the Sarcoma Universe | For the Newly Diagnosed:



#Cancer, #Sarcoma

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It's A Beautiful Day - Jamie Grace (with lyrics)

Praise Him (playlist)

Praise Him (playlist)

Another Rant or vent post; Fighting cancer one moment at a time!

Feeling, "UGH' today. My thigh is swollen and I'm feeling "clammy". I got a Dr's appointment later. But my mind is racing with all the possibilities of why this swelling in this location. Near the lymph nodes.
I usually read cancer support boards for support, but today its painful and scary. Cancer reminds us that we are not invincible. Life is short and we don't always have control of what takes us and when. That feeling of being "out of control" is frightening! I think about how I was living before my diagnosis. I wasn't worried about dying. I went about my life as if I had years  to enjoy my life. Yet I could have been killed in a car crash or had a heart attack at any moment. It happens. We are all dying. But a cancer diagnoses gives you a hint of how you may die, and in some cases a date. Think about that. That's pretty scary!  That hard part is being able to not think about it and live your life. The people I hear about that can are true inspirations! It's easy to say you have to take life "One day at a time". or, "Live like you were dying". But its so hard to live it! Its harder when you're tired and not feeling well. You lose your momentum.
I'm tired of being sick and tired. I tired of going to Kaiser every 2 or 3 days! I want my life back. I want to go to work and make plans for my future. I don't want to have to cancel plans to go to Dr's appointments.  I want to walk my dog without pain. I want people to ask me how I am and not have an answer regarding my cancer. I want to be able to call myself a "survivor". That title is so important to me. It takes such a great level of patients to get there and I don't have a lot these days.
I refer to this as "Cancer the gift that keeps giving". If its not one thing its another. I went from diagnoses and the struggles to have tests and then surgery then to radiation and now the healing. The healing is as difficult as the treatments. A long a slow process.

Now that I have that off my chest, I can see that I have to relax. I have to live in the moment and take this one moment at a time. I am healing slowly. I have come a long way in my treatment. I haven't been given a death sentence so far. I have to stop trying to predict the future and live for today.
What am I grateful for? What are my blessings? How can I live like I was dying, even if its not for many many years?

For all of you who have just lost 5 minutes of your life reading this blog, I ask you a favor.

Live today like you were dying!

because you are!

"It's a nice day for a white wedding"!

What a nice day for a wedding, don't you agree?

I have recently become a ordained minister and I can perform marriages and renew vows. I am so excited! I love weddings and the energy on that day!

 Check out my website for more details "I dos by Becca" http://b-burgess.com

email= beccab @ b-burgess dot com

If you or anyone you know wants to get married in Northern California, let me know or give them my contact.

also on Facebook. and Pinterest! 

Cancer, the gift that keeps on giving.

I need to vent.
Another day dealing with the side affects of cancer treatment. (eff cancer!!)
 I have avoided updating my status on Facebook with my day to day struggles with cancer I think because I am avoiding it. I haven't written in my journal or blogged about it.. Avoiding dealing with it.  A lil self psychology. 

The wound from surgery in August hasn't fully healed due to the radiation treatment last Oct-Nov, done so soon after surgery. Now I have an staff infection in it and I am on the second round of antibiotics. I went to a wound nurse and discussed another possible surgery on the infected spot. It as has been a true challenge trying to bandage my thigh. Picture this, The top of your thigh is larger than the lower part and mine has been burn 3/4 of the way around it. So I cant use tape or any adhesives. I use wrap. Then I walk and it slides off. I wrap more and get creative with pinning to my underwear etc etc,, It slides off. UGH! Now I have to keep it clean and covered, (My Dr says, "Creen" lol he's Chinese). The wound nurse has a special dressing with a cream to soften the area I have to leave on until it heals. AND,, I cant shower for 2-3 days. UGH again!
In the mean time my Oncologist has not been able to a MRI to see if the radiation was able to zap the remaining tumor. So I may still have some cancer in there. AUGH!!
I have been dealing with this since surgery last Aug. I'm ready to move on. I want to take my dog on walks and sit and rest with out discomfort.  I am walking better without a cane now. That is good!
There I admitted it! I'm frustrated and I am allowing myself to feel defeated.
I have cancer it doesn't have me. I feel like I'm at my first 12 step meeting.
"My Name is Becca, I have cancer".  Hum maybe I touched on my problem. I have to face it!. Defeat it!

THANKS FOR LISTENING I GOT IT OFF MY CHEST! LUV YA!

Farewell 2013! You will not be missed!

This is not a fond farewell to 2013. This last year has been the most difficult year I can remember!